"Hello world hope you're listening..."

Do you ever feel alone in such hard times? It sometimes seems as if theres no one around at times you need people the most. But everyone has problems in the world, with families, friends, relationships, money, and the list goes on. There are billions and billions of people in the world how is it that one living creature in this world of billions of beings feels alone? Why do we choose to keep to ourselves? And why is it that when one person feels they need to talk to their friends or people they hang out with about problems in their life we aren't always willing to listen and find it annoying how this one person always talks about their life being fucked up? Do we act out because we feel our life is the most fucked up thing in this world? Do we act out because we feel alone? Do we act out because no one wants to listen? I mean whats the point of having billions and billions of people on this world with us if we just ignore other peoples problems and focus on our own? Why are there only some willing to help? What is love if we cant even show it to the billion others we share the world with? Is it real? If it is then where is it? Why do we only find it in others? Cant love be more than just something we find in another person we believe is "the one" and the person we would want to spend our lives with? We all deal with problems differently. I honestly don't like opening up and I choose to run from my problems. I mean space away from all the problems is a good way to calm down but eventually we have to face it again...and this circle keeps going around run away...cool off....and deal with it again.... where the hell does it end? The only things that can make me happy are the memories i've shared with people.... I really dont know how to deal with life and I just keep looking forward to the time I can move out and live on my own....but wont I just be stuck with more and more problems and feeling even more alone? Maybe people we come across in our lives are there to help us get through those lonely times......maybe fate isn't just what happens after making a choice? Maybe fate is there in order to help times we are so alone..... My grandma always had theories about the stars.....that it was our seperation from real life....and the greater beings...Maybe they were just bed time stories she liked to tell me to get my imagination going....but I took all her words to heart. That they are just waiting for us to seek help, each and every star is looking out everyone in the world....thats why there are too many to count.. that each star is responsible for one individual in the world....and when we look to the exact one designated for us.......and ask for something we really desire.... it will some how come to us and help us if we really need it.... maybe it was just her way of getting me to pray? But when I think about all that she told me....it's all true in some way... we are all looking for happiness.....but we just dont know how to find it.... maybe we just need to help each other? Maybe happiness is all around us...maybe we just are trying to find the happiness we were all told to want and seek. Success, being wealthy, and having everything we can buy. Maybe we all run into problems because we all seek that... Maybe true happiness is not found by giving up all we love to become rich. Maybe happiness is what we find in each other and love is what we seek. Love is what we should share around, Love is what heals and helps us find happiness..